Secure on the Rock
Every little girl wants to know that their daddy thinks they are beautiful but what if your daddy abused you? As we grow older that doesn’t change, our heart and soul still longs to hear the words, “You are beautiful”. All my life I heard the words, “Angela you are strong”, or “Angela, you will get through this – you know you are strong”. The words that caught me off guard one day were the words my husband, Eric, spoke to me. To my surprise the very words that I thought would cause me offense were the exact words that set me free. Quite simply, he said, “Darling, you are not strong”. Hearing these simple words caught me off guard. What do you mean? I have always been told how amazingly strong I am and how I can always get through anything because I can cope. Are you really telling me that I am not all these things? Why does this feel good? Secure on the Rock is my journey in discovering the beautiful gift God has given me in making me the weaker vessel. He has shown me who I really am and set me free from the snare of controlling insecurity. No longer do I live life confused and unsure of myself; I know who I am and I love being me. I don’t have to be in control and I don’t have to feel insecure, I am totally free to be me. All my life I have longed for this freedom believing it only to be a fairy tale, but today I can testify beyond a reasonable doubt that this freedom is possible, it’s not a fairy tale and best of all you can have it too!